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When I went off birth control before getting pregnant with Johnny, we got pregnant the first month. I KNOW in my head that it doesn't mean this time would be as easy, but I also sort of thought that five months in - including the past two months of timing out when I might be ovulating - we would have gotten pregnant. I'm not. So.

Also you know how kids have no filters? Johnny says almost daily "Mommy you look like you have a baby in your big fat belly" which is not only making me upset because HELLO you're calling me fat, but also because yeah, there IS no baby in there and we all kind of want that. And I KNOW he's four and doesn't MEAN it, but man. It's hard to hear e.v.e.r.y. day. Meh.